The Missing Piece: Spirituality

By Lauren Nastasi

I have come to the realization that healing has to do with many things; not just my diet. I am sure many of you already knew this, but the problem is realizing how to fix it. For me, the issue was digging down and finding what needed to be healed.

I have Crohn’s Disease and have been working toward healing it with a high raw, vegan diet consisting of green juices, green smoothies, and high quality, wholesome food. I previously composed a post about my journey on Crazy Sexy Life, but I have always felt a piece of the puzzle was missing. The problem was finding it!

What was the missing piece? Spirituality, silly! I pray, do yoga and receive acupuncture treatments, but my mind was never clear. I needed to become in touch with my spiritual side, the one hidden and trying to come out!

A few days before the new year, I had my Tarot cards read. I was in a New Age/Spiritual store and had struck up a conversation with the woman that worked there. We had talked a few times, so I felt fairly comfortable with her. When she offered me a reading, I felt I should do it. Having been raised Catholic, I was pretty relieved when I didn’t burst into flames after the reading was completed. I just hope my Naunee (grandmother) doesn’t read this! Anyway, the reading was very surprising because of how accurate the cards were. Before I left, the reader told me that I need to pay attention to signs from the universe and my angels (to be more spiritual). I thought I was already being as spiritual as I could be because I practice yoga, pray and meditate during acupuncture. What more could I do?

It took me a few weeks to really get the message. I did yoga, but I was always thinking about what I had to do next and not really staying present. During acupuncture, I would meditate for 15 minutes and snap out of it thinking the hour was almost over with 45 minutes left. During those 45 minutes, my mind would think about anything and everything except the present moment.

Then, it happened! I heard the angels loud and clear! Well, not really, but I finally got it. Something clicked! A good friend was talking about reading spiritual books, and I thought to myself, “I need to read a good self-help/spiritual book.” I went out and found a book that looked interesting, titled You Can Heal Your Life, by Louise L. Hay. I like this author, and in fact, I have her other text, Meditations to Heal Your Life. Instead of listening to my instincts, I put the book down and walked away. Not long after, I read a comment on MyCSL mentioning Hay’s book! Kicking myself for not buying it, I went out the next day and purchased it. This began my listenening to the universe.

A few days later, I picked out an “Angel Card” from Oracle Cards, and I drew the “Sensitivity” card. It stated that being sensitive is not a bad thing, and this was actually a new idea to me. I am a sensitive person and always felt it wasn’t a good trait. That same day, I was watching a show and someone mentioned crying isn’t weakness, but rather, not being able to show emotion is. Could these signs be any clearer?

I’ve since decided that I am not going to hide my feelings or feel embarrassed if something bothers me. Instead, I am going to let it out. I started journaling more, going to meditation class and becoming more in touch with my “spiritual self.” After all, look what being present and listening to my instincts has given me: more clarity than I have had in years. Now, it’s time to use it, and hopefully, it will help me on this crazy sexy healing journey!

Lauren Nastasi is a Research Assistant for Crazy Sexy Life. She lives in New Jersey with her husband and pug, Ginger. Her blog can be found at Gingeristhenewpink.blogspot.com.